Whenever a new post emerges, it usually means there is something else that I’m supposed to be doing that I don’t want to do. So I convince myself of the importance of keeping my writing skills afresh. This time, I just went for a run and I DO NOT want to shower. Can I get a witness?
Time is such a strange thing. It goes so slow and flies by all in one fell swoop. I can’t believe the spring semester is already halfway through! I’m taking Arabic, World History, Judaism, and Foreign Policy. It has actually been a blast! I have a Jewish professor, a Christian professor and a Muslim professor. The Muslim is my favorite. He’s kind and hilarious and loves his students. I consider him a gift from the Lord, because I’m learning I can deeply enjoy the friendship of people who believe very differently than me. It’s high time I quit treating people like projects and start treating them like people! It’s must easier to give grace that way. Anyway, he heads up the LSU in Morocco trip each summer. I wanted to go so bad! BUT I’m already going to Kenya!
I’ve never been so excited for summer to come. I’ll be staying in Baton Rouge, working and taking a class, living with my best friends! For months we’ve been dreaming of movie nights, crawfish boils, evenings sitting on the swing on the front porch. My kind of summer. And at the end of it all, I’ll be going to Kenya for two weeks with Heart of the Bride to work with orphans and run a summer camp! SO EXCITED I might die. Hopefully I’ll be able to come back and actually be motivated to finish my last year of college. My heart has been elsewhere for a long time. And if I find it in Africa, it might be very hard to depart.
I’ve been trying to figure out what God is teaching me in this season of life. I’ve been really pressed about the idea of prayer. I know that somewhere in there is the power source of Jesus’ disciples to do the work of the Kingdom. But it is unbelievably overwhelming. There are millions and millions of things one could pray for. And when you finally narrow it down, what do you say?! Why do we pray? How is it possible to pray without ceasing? How does prayer and God’s sovereignty work together? I feel like “good Christians” don’t ask these kinds of questions, but if I don’t ask then how can I be authentic? Otherwise, I’m just doing stuff because I’m “supposed” to do stuff. That’s no fun. And I don’t really think that’s what God wants for His people.
So I bought Andrew Murray’s With Christ in the School of Prayer and I think it’s time! I hope to receive fresh revelation that completely revolutionizes my relationship with Jesus. I LOVE being His disciple! He gives grace to grow, to learn, to mess up. I need to take advantage of His grace more often. Of course not for the sake of sin! But that I may throw myself out there and know that if I “fail” that His grace goes further still. Grace upon grace…